noe me, or else...
zenöv of zenövia!
unparallelled
~ ~
November 17th morning 1983
ζ Silat Kindergarten ζ Silat PS:1A-2A ζ ZPS:3A-6A ζ
ζ RVHS:1F/2F/3/4I ζ HJC:00S60
ζ BMTC Ninja + Viper ζ Jln BM
ζ Punggol 21 ζ NEL->EWL->96
ζ NUS Engin 2 ζ CSC ζ CSL ζ LB
ζ Ethelonter III ζ sammi
ζ zenov_yzr@yahoo.com
Wat I Did On
went sch early morning. print notes, went clubrm, gaw goft-wrapping not starting den. went to drink tea w dr at arts den went back and rot w him at the cubicle while gaw continued their meeting. 1400hrs, gift-wrapping start. was w the VM cell wrapping PWG. den, went for CSL w pui and guys. raymond still rem me and told me he wanted me to go and help him w his chi, cos his new kor kor sucked in chi.
Ï 26 Sep 2006 (Tue) Ï
mugged, and cut hair at kimage by a LEADING hairstylist. an old woman w horrible make-up. the outcome quite ok, i transformed from a tw boy to a hk lad...
Ï 25 Sep 2006 (Mon) Ï
rot in and out of clubrm. proj meeting n my proj mates finally accepted the fact dat we're doing a mkting module cos our sup said so.
Ï 23 - 24 Sep 2006 (Sat) Ï
cyclohunt. went from ecp to paya lebar to tampines to pasir ris to changi village to changi airport back to ecp. butt is sore~!!!
Ï 22 Sep 2006 (Fri) Ï
slacked in clubrm, did LB stuff, den helped gaw check the gifts. left w dr, den supper w zps gang at tb market.
Ï 21 Sep 2006 (Thur) Ï
mugged a little, den watched forbidden city.
Ï 20 Sep 2006 (Wed) Ï
went clubrm to 'study'. end up helping tC do the LB MAF stuff. yep, the great day is coming & prep is under way. den, cb came at 3.30pm to play squash. me and him, w dr outside the squash courts mugging. den zin came and mugged too. amazingly, squash today is tiringly. perhaps cb really noe how to tire ppl, incl himself. den we had steamboat at the cheena 'cafe' at src. quite ok, worth it for $6. den, back to clubrm to 'study'. end up look at photos w j1 and den help her w phy tut. den left her w ives at 10pm... yup, it was VERY late le...
Ï 19 Sep 2006 (Tue) Ï
had breakfast w LF at clementi hawker centre. zin came later and treated us siew mai, to make up for being late. ok, we forced her to treat us. Then we went big bookshop to LSLS. wow... v long neva shop in such a bkshop and it still fascinates me. pretty but useless stationery, cheap but small sch bags... den, went home, punggol home. ate instant mee (cos i miss eating instant mee) and slept. woke up by mum coming home, had dinner den her soup. supposedly to fight heatiness. den, watch tv and sleep.
Ï 18 Sep 2006 (Mon) Ï
mugged.. or so i tot. couldn't really study. attended csc agm at 1830. haiz... they feel sad, and i feel sad too. shan't say much here. ä¸åå°½å¨ä¸è¨ä¸
Ï 17 Sep 2006 (Sun) Ï
mugged. met fred at tbp for dinner at 8pm. ate LD's biscuits...
Ï 16 Sep 2006 (Sat) Ï
mugged.
Ï 15 Sep 2006 (Fri) Ï
mugged.
Ï 14 Sep 2006 (Thur) Ï
GAW booth.
Ï 13 Sep 2006 (Wed) Ï
Lab again, couldn't find lab, squashed, mugged.
Ï 12 Sep 2006 (Tue) Ï
No lab! cos lab is FULL... went to tut to sign in attendance. had breakfast w 6g at arts canteen.
Ï 11 Sep 2006 (Mon) Ï
Lab, sianz... slack at study rm...
Ï 09 Sep 2006 (Sat) Ï
LB, source for T-shirt printing, bot MAF stuff, Ma'at gathering to celebrate the b'days of Sep babies at Park Mall's Fish n Co. Had seafood platter for 2 w dr. Was given a cake by another group of people we dunch noe, so we ate 2 cakes within 2 hrs!
Ï 08 Sep 2006 (Fri) Ï
Lab, E31 meeting, GAW Briefing, KFC with 8 other people.
Ï 07 Sep 2006 (Thur) Ï
Bot new RAM for my lifebk! PC333 512MB. Now my lifebk is running 3x faster than b4...
Ï 06 Sep 2006 (Wed) Ï
Went swimming w cb, only to realize it was pri sch's hols & we called it off, only to eat kfc at JE pool. Then, went to sim lim to buy RAM for my laptop, only to realize i dinno the type of RAM my lifebook needs. So, went home empty-handed.
Ï 05 Sep 2006 (Tue) Ï
Auditions. Continued to fine-tune tC's present. LB-meeting. Happy Birthday to tC & bon voyage to ä¸ç¾½!!
Ï 04 Sep 2006 (Mon) Ï
Spent the whole day preparing for tC's b'day, cos his bday is on tue. waited for km to arrive at 7pm and we started recording a 广æå§ for the present. Rushed home to dp post-productions...
Ï 03 Sep 2006 (Sun) Ï
Spent 7 hrs under the sun...
Ï 02 Sep 2006 (Sat) Ï
Attended CSC Elections. wow... it's very attn-stretching. went for LB's 1st regular visit since LBFD. BBS after that. Accompanied tC to ikea to do some shopping. After that, took the shuttle service from ikea to sengkang. 1st time taking it, but it was slow, cos the bus took some funny, long detour. Last min prep...
Ï 01 Sep 2006 (Fri) Ï
Lab, tutorials, E31 discussion, home. Print photos and sleep.
Ï 31 Aug 2006 (Thur) Ï
ktv lunch w zw & yh. after dat, we walked abt abit and settled down at carl's jr. zw went off at 3+ and yh & 1 stayed till 4.30pm.
Ï 30 Aug 2006 (Wed) Ï
Self study day. Had lunch w J2. den J1 came and 2J & me went to haf dinner. after which, J2 went for dance & J1 & me went to print notes. peaceful day. lived up my name as GC prez for prying some dark secrets of J2... haha... J1's next.
Ï 29 Aug 2006 (Tue) Ï
LB meeting. We began to believe we're on the rite track. We'll go build a new LB together! Stupid me actually been to wrong tut gp for 2 wks!
Ï 26 Aug 2006 (Sat) Ï
Dinner w family at Yong Chun Yuan.
Ï 25 Aug 2006 (Fri) Ï
LB Outing to Settler's at CQ. Click on LB On The Blog link for details.
Ï 23 Aug 2006 (Wed) Ï
Swimming w cb from 230pm to 5pm at JE Pool. Dinner at the kfc there too.
Ï 22 Aug 2006 (Tue) Ï
Went to sch, zao lect, did tutorial & attended a hypnotizing session a.k.a E7 tutorial. escaped to clubrm to update my blog. nabehz~ Life's boring... NOT. gonna haf lunch w y^2. And then...
Ï 21 Aug 2006 (Mon) Ï
Went to sch, zao lect, den met up w 2J+C (their fren) to haf lunch @ engin canteen. tokked kok to joyce and den went to clubrm to rot. Then, printed notes on CBLC. next day, received announcement from E35 lecturer dat the notes will b sold by coop. nabehz~
Ï 19 Aug 2006 (Sat) Ï
LBFD. See LB's blog for more details.
Ï 18 Aug 2006 (Fri) Ï
Prep for LBFD. Nametags, presents, dispenser... Went to mit ZPS Gang, dinner at siam kitchen, GWC. had dessert at cedele. nice...
Ï 17 Aug 2006 (Thur) Ï
Last day of Outreach. Prepared for LBFD.
Ï 16 Aug 2006 (Wed) Ï
CSC Outreach Day 2. played squash w Ma'ats again. super shag! 1st time i played till dat shagged! cb, se, 2j, km, dr & zin all came down, tho not sll played lol
Ï 15 Aug 2006 (Tue) Ï
2nd day of sch! CSC Outreach Day 1! fun... =)
Ï 14 Aug 2006 (Mon) Ï
1st day of sch! So much fun! Jio-ed 2Js to lunch, but end up accompanying them nid modules at clubrm. Then only joyce accompany me eat lunch. Ed joined us and we had a little gossip, from Arts canteen to CL to clubrm. jenny so farnie. She said her tuition got cancelled, but she neva come back sch earlier. hmmm... sth's fishy... den had a meeting w LB comm at student's lounge. den home. my landlady was very nice to gimme eat the lor mai kai she made herself. and dan hua tang! den watched tv w her daughter while chatting on msn...
Ï 13 Aug 2006 (Sun) Ï
Recuperate from sadness.
Ï 12 Aug 2006 (Sat) Ï
Fire diao, LB, LB VBS, shopping along NEL.
Ï 11 Aug 2006 (Fri) Ï
Lunch w cb, shopping, dinner w Ma'at. Fireworks watching. Tok-kok.
Ï 10 Aug 2006 (Thur) Ï
Went sch take cca card. Then slept. Then blogged.
Ï 09 Aug 2006 (Wed) Ï
Nat'l Day, blading at ECP, dinner at Shi Nai Cha Can Ting, watched NDP, blogged.
Ï 08 Aug 2006 (Tue) Ï
Big Shift 3/3, sch, dinner w tC, shopping at PS & Orchard MRT.
Ï 07 Aug 2006 (Mon) Ï
KTV w some Ma'ats and Big Shift 2/3.
Ï 06 Aug 2006 (Sun) Ï
SLEEP, SLEEP, SLEEP, shift stuff and dat's all.
Ï 05 Aug 2006 (Sat) Ï
tuition, lunch at Bryan's, chit chat, Hard Gay, Fireworks, steamboat, chit chat and shitting.
Ï 04 Jul 2006 (Fri) Ï
met up w yj again to complete our hideous stuff. had lunch and den had haircut. c'est tout.
Ï 02 Aug 2006 (Wed) Ï
met up w yj & we went to do some hideous stuff...
Ï 01 Aug 2006 (Tue) Ï
Matric fair again. After dat, slacked a while in clubrm helping them fold the leaves. Then went to Bras Basah to buy acrylic for the *LB CONFIDENTIAL*. bot PDA, Palm Tunsten E from ebay. Then met kf where we had dinner at dis V8 restaurant in Bugis. Home.
Ï 31 Jul 2006 (Mon) Ï
Matric fair from 1330 - 1530, gonna do for tue, wed & fri too. LB comm meeting at 1530 at student's lounge. so on, we visualized so much fancy stuff. hope we can fulfil everything we planned.
Ï 30 Jul 2006 (Sun) Ï
Slept at home, 2nd try at pasta. Not a bloody mess, got green, but not dat nice cos of the capsicum.
Ï 29 Jul 2006 (Sat) Ï
Lunch at Funan food court after Ma'ats went for city walk. rotted a while, den to LB w tC & cb. den met up w bryan & LF and them, me, joyce, cb & ed went to sing ktv. den we met km at cnt pt mac for supper.
Ï 28 Jul 2006 (Fri) Ï
Went for SOKA SD Orientation. GC nearly full strength w exception of viv. Did quite a bit of bitching and groping, pinching... shall elaborate more in blog, but it's late at nite now...
Ï 27 Jul 2006 (Thur) Ï
Got so bored staying at home 2 hrs into waking dat I jio-ed cb to Nat'l Lib to immerse ourselves in the bk-ish environment. Slept at there instead. Then went to Sim Lim to look at PDAs.
Ï 26 Jul 2006 (Wed) Ï
Afternoon chat w zw & sh from 1-6 at kovan xin wang. csl after dat. justin drew for me a nice pic.
Ï 25 Jul 2006 (Tue) Ï
Ma'at Sports Day 3. Played squash all the way. Mac dinner. Took up a challenge w cb & km to lose 3 inches off our waist by next wk.
Ï 24 Jul 2006 (Mon) Ï
Ma'at Water Sports Day 2. Late, started walking to JE pool at 1230pm, only to realize it's only open at 1430 on mon. Lazy river, wave, lazy and wave. No slides this time round, cos I'm a bit flu-y. Dinner at kopitiam outside pool w ching & bu, cos ray went home for dinner =(
Ï 23 Jul 2006 (Sun) Ï
Nothing much, except shopping at NTUC & pasta making.
Ï 22 Jul 2006 (Sat) Ï
LB visit, but went to visit an elderly in Pasir Ris b4 dat. uh-oh... haven't visited epl's elderly...
Ï 21 Jul 2006 (Fri) Ï
Dinner with YJ, den watched Thank You For Smoking, a super brainy show.
Ï 20 Jul 2006 (Thur) Ï
Ma'at 满æ. Went to settler's and then to Crystal Jade at Suntec. Pathetic attendance. 满æ = Time to split up.
Ï 19 Jul 2006 (Wed) Ï
Revelation with someone
Ï 18 Jul 2006 (Tue) Ï
Ma'at Sports Day 2
Ï 17 Jul 2006 (Mon) Ï
Movie with GC. Slacked, walked from DG to The Heerens, settled at Starbucks at Crown Prince Hotel, then dinner at Cine's LJS. Walked again to Kino, chit chat standing among the sea of books. Then home... on NEL lah...
Ï 15 Jul 2006 (Sat) Ï
Bintan Trip.
Ï 14 Jul 2006 (Fri) Ï
GC Investiture.
Ï 13 Jul 2006 (Thur) Ï
Ma'at Water Sports Day. See blog entry.
Ï 11 Jul 2006 (Tue) Ï
Ma'at Sports Day. See blog entry.
Ï 10 Jul 2006 (Mon) Ï
Sent my mum to polyclinic dis morn. She has fracture, so she'll be going to c an ortho next next wk at AH. Spent a boring 5 hrs in SK Polyclinic. They r sure INEFFICIENT. I couldn't sleep & I scolded a little kid who kept climbing over me while I slept. Late afternoon, went to Marine Parade to bk Bintan Hols. Chose the wrong route. Spent 1.5 hrs on 197. shucks! shd haf taken from bedok. My return trip took only 1 hr.
Ï 09 Jul 2006 (Sun) Ï
Dinner with Ma'at after their C.A.N. Split into Pizza Hut and Pastamania.
Ï 08 Jul 2006 (Sat) Ï
Afternoon: LB elderly-turned-volunteers outing to Qian Hu in Tengah, followed by KPO session at Delifrance w some of the surviving volunteers. Made way down to hf's hse to play mahjong w HJC gang, tho they stopped playing to watch WC. boring~ when will these ppl grow up?? so i'm here updating my blog...
Ï 07 Jul 2006 (Fri) Ï
Afternoon: Chalet accts tally with zin & bryan. chit chat & abused zin's laptop while she was away. Evening: 3rd date w someone at harborfront, followed by a long walk w her to home. Then off to bugis to try my luck w bryan & chio bu & watched a super lame show: Recycle together, after shopping through 3 cinemas
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DVD movies
Mandarin Albums (China imported)
Resolutions 2006
-+ Play the piano +-
-+ Rollerblading +- learning
-+ Dancing +-
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-+ Complete 1st novel by June & 2nd novel by Dec +-
-+ Find a tuition job +-
-+ Read
-+ Read 2 chinese bks +-
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-+ Join ç»å¯¹ Superstar +-
-+ Do a gd job in csc bizcom and ethelonter III +-
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-+ Creative PC-Cam 950 (Blue) +-
-+ 1GB RAM for Lifebook +-
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Snow Falling On Cedars
Taking Lives, Pearl Harbor
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Great Expectations
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Snow Falling On Cedars
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SimCity4, The Age of Empires 2
Neverwinter Nights
Railroad Tycoon II, Tropico,
Enter The Matrix,
Beach Life,Worms Armageddon
Capitalism II, Monopoly Tycoon
Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion
i'm a scorpio
Ruling Planet: Pluto/ Mars
Element: Water
Cross/Quality: Fixed
Group: Intellectual
House Ruled: Eight
Polarity: Negative
Opposite Sign: Taurus
Favorable Colors: Dark Reds & black
Lucky Gem: Opal
Key Body Part: Reproductive Organs
Period: Oct.23 - Nov.21
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"I've never been so far from my dream than when I was standing right beside it."
"If at first you don't succeed, try, try again"
"Ten fingers, ten toes, that was all that mattered. They don't say that now."
"Is the only way you can succeed is to see me fail?"
"Maybe it was the love for the planets, maybe it was my growing detest for this one, but for as long as I remember, I have dreamt of going into space
"You try so hard to leave a place and when you do, you find a reason to stay."
"They've got you looking for the flaws that after a while, it's all that you see."
"The wind caught it."
"The only way you can see the inside of a spaceship is when you are cleaning it."
-- Quotes from GATTACA
"Love is like an apple; it has been more than 300 years since an apple dropped and hit someone randomly"
-- zenöv
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
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Friday, November 25, 2005
Thursday, November 24, 2005
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Gerald
had a dream last nite which was in sync w the storm dat signalled the start of the rainy season.
started out w 2 guys infiltrating the depths of a warehse to steal some stuff; some stealing of stuff in order to sell them at no costs. some admin guy received a phone threat and the firm went into hysteria, which was when i turned into a 1st person, being the accomplice in the theft, totally unrelated to the bomb threat.
ended up dat in the midst of chaos, we could transport stacks of eqpt w a trolley to the unloading bay. all was fine when Morpheus from The Matrix appeared w his samurai sword. he was confronting his staff (obviously he was the boss of the firm) and everybody was afraid.
so were we. so, someone (yes, some staff, in fact) suggested we juz make our escape w a few items and dat's all. so, we each fished a set of gameboy (yes, and it was round like a discman, tho my mind said: gameboy) from the loot we collected and ran off to a rd nearby.
dat was when i realized the person next to me, my accomplice, was Gerald, whom i called Wenfu, whom others called Boon Hock. we made our way down the rd, where he met a lady who was in his church. we caught a bus deciding whether to catch a flight home or stay over.
catch a flight?? yes, we were in NZ and we juz ended a day of 'tour'. aniwaes, we caught a bus to nowhere. someone sat beside me and my head was sandwiched between his shoulder and the window. wanted to scold dat person, but tinking dat we juz commited theft, i suffered the rest of the ride. we concluded dat it was too late to go home (nearing 12am) and checked into a YMCA hotel, b4 which, we bked a day tour for the next day to Milford Sound (we're in NZ, hello).
YMCA hotel was v rundown and disorganized. someone took my bed and i had to take another. went to bathe, but the shower was spraying w/o a definite direction and i wet my towel. hmmm...
aniwaes, went out the next day, which was cool but cozy. went to 'Milford Sound' (which obviously dun look like it) and i was awaken by my alarm clock.
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spent my breakfast time tinking abt the dream, in particular, tinking abt my poor, best fren, who is as much as a stranger on the NEL. he was my best fren for some yrs, and as usual, some fren i dun treasure much.
we met in the triple-one mkt at my old home. my mum was working in the veg bee hoon stall and i was there for my morning soyabean. it was the dec hols and i was to start my 1st sem in ZPS. in all her eagerness to help me ease into my new environment, my mum and gerald's nanny intro-ed the both of us to each other.
frankly speaking, i din really remember his face, evident when the sch reopened, and i was wandering aimlessly thru the crowd in the canteen and w/o seeing him approaching me. but since he was the only one i knew in ZPS (other than kf, who was as much a stranger in zps as i was), i concluded dat guy WAS gerald. so he helped me settle into my new cls. could remember the words we said.
yup, he called me 'ye zhan' for the period dat we spent in the same cls. he'd always call from the bridge to me at blk 140 after sch 'YE ZHAN!!!', and we wld wave to each other (cos my father fetched me home during while i was in P3, so as a 'guai guai' kid, i stuck to my father's side and din run abt)
pic of young... gerald is 3rd guy from the front, while i'm...
we were a pair of 'gd frens' who spent only 2 yrs in the same cls. he went to 5B, after which, to VS. we were still close and often visited each other's home (more of his than mine). being the only son, he was lonely and always insisted the full attn of the ones in his immediate surroundings. i became tired of contributing (not dat o dun like to gif, sometimes, i juz hafta rest...). i tot i was obvious in showing dat, which was quite rude, i tink.
aniwaes, he also shared a lot of things w me. he had a PC in sec sch, and shared w me and tot me how to use it, showed me how to play games w it. he tot me how to ride a bike, his little bike which looked awkward w me riding it (was ridiculed by some ah beng while learning it). yes, dat was when he was still living in blk 143, 3rd floor. we were in p6, the free period after PSLE. we cycled round the playground beside his void deck.
he tot me how to swim breast stroke (which is the only stroke i can master). yup, our fav past time was swimming, where we would spend a whole afternoon playing in the pool, playing catching, fetch and competing. i always win the 1st 2 cos of my ht, but competing against each other in swimming, his forte, was suicide. i'd always cheat by walking (we play in the training pool, left the adult pool for serious swims). yup, we swim in delta pool, which was y i still swim there even tho it was rumoured to b swarming w gays. (not dat i'm much of an eye-candy to b pestered by them aniwaes)
when he found a new gd fren in VS, i was jealous, even tho i hadn't really treated him as a gd fren wld. his new fren was called jackson and he (jackson) brought him in to christianity. dat was in sec 2, and was when our lives became to diverge.
he went out of my life totally while i was in JC, the way most of my old life was back then. found new frens, new lives, and of cos, new troubles. aniwaes, the both of us never met up again, until after JC--b4 bmt, when the both of us prepared for ns together, shopping in the army mkt. but dat was it. life took another turn and the only time we met was when my father passed away. he came w his mother, who knew my father well, cos they always mit in the mkt.
we exchanged some smses in the coming yrs, and the last i knew of him was dat he was in poly studying computer animation (i even 4got the name of the poly, shit me. dun dare to ask him again...), something he was always so interested and gd in. gd for him, i wish him luck.
4 Nov 2005
had a dream last nite which was in sync w the storm dat signalled the start of the rainy season.
started out w 2 guys infiltrating the depths of a warehse to steal some stuff; some stealing of stuff in order to sell them at no costs. some admin guy received a phone threat and the firm went into hysteria, which was when i turned into a 1st person, being the accomplice in the theft, totally unrelated to the bomb threat.
ended up dat in the midst of chaos, we could transport stacks of eqpt w a trolley to the unloading bay. all was fine when Morpheus from The Matrix appeared w his samurai sword. he was confronting his staff (obviously he was the boss of the firm) and everybody was afraid.
so were we. so, someone (yes, some staff, in fact) suggested we juz make our escape w a few items and dat's all. so, we each fished a set of gameboy (yes, and it was round like a discman, tho my mind said: gameboy) from the loot we collected and ran off to a rd nearby.
dat was when i realized the person next to me, my accomplice, was Gerald, whom i called Wenfu, whom others called Boon Hock. we made our way down the rd, where he met a lady who was in his church. we caught a bus deciding whether to catch a flight home or stay over.
catch a flight?? yes, we were in NZ and we juz ended a day of 'tour'. aniwaes, we caught a bus to nowhere. someone sat beside me and my head was sandwiched between his shoulder and the window. wanted to scold dat person, but tinking dat we juz commited theft, i suffered the rest of the ride. we concluded dat it was too late to go home (nearing 12am) and checked into a YMCA hotel, b4 which, we bked a day tour for the next day to Milford Sound (we're in NZ, hello).
YMCA hotel was v rundown and disorganized. someone took my bed and i had to take another. went to bathe, but the shower was spraying w/o a definite direction and i wet my towel. hmmm...
aniwaes, went out the next day, which was cool but cozy. went to 'Milford Sound' (which obviously dun look like it) and i was awaken by my alarm clock.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
spent my breakfast time tinking abt the dream, in particular, tinking abt my poor, best fren, who is as much as a stranger on the NEL. he was my best fren for some yrs, and as usual, some fren i dun treasure much.
we met in the triple-one mkt at my old home. my mum was working in the veg bee hoon stall and i was there for my morning soyabean. it was the dec hols and i was to start my 1st sem in ZPS. in all her eagerness to help me ease into my new environment, my mum and gerald's nanny intro-ed the both of us to each other.
frankly speaking, i din really remember his face, evident when the sch reopened, and i was wandering aimlessly thru the crowd in the canteen and w/o seeing him approaching me. but since he was the only one i knew in ZPS (other than kf, who was as much a stranger in zps as i was), i concluded dat guy WAS gerald. so he helped me settle into my new cls. could remember the words we said.
gerald: (tap on my shoulder) ye-zhan
me: (turned ard, stoned, when i realized who he was, acted animatedly) wen-fu!!!
i guess ppl who noe me can imagine my way of acting amazed.yup, he called me 'ye zhan' for the period dat we spent in the same cls. he'd always call from the bridge to me at blk 140 after sch 'YE ZHAN!!!', and we wld wave to each other (cos my father fetched me home during while i was in P3, so as a 'guai guai' kid, i stuck to my father's side and din run abt)
pic of young... gerald is 3rd guy from the front, while i'm...
we were a pair of 'gd frens' who spent only 2 yrs in the same cls. he went to 5B, after which, to VS. we were still close and often visited each other's home (more of his than mine). being the only son, he was lonely and always insisted the full attn of the ones in his immediate surroundings. i became tired of contributing (not dat o dun like to gif, sometimes, i juz hafta rest...). i tot i was obvious in showing dat, which was quite rude, i tink.
aniwaes, he also shared a lot of things w me. he had a PC in sec sch, and shared w me and tot me how to use it, showed me how to play games w it. he tot me how to ride a bike, his little bike which looked awkward w me riding it (was ridiculed by some ah beng while learning it). yes, dat was when he was still living in blk 143, 3rd floor. we were in p6, the free period after PSLE. we cycled round the playground beside his void deck.
he tot me how to swim breast stroke (which is the only stroke i can master). yup, our fav past time was swimming, where we would spend a whole afternoon playing in the pool, playing catching, fetch and competing. i always win the 1st 2 cos of my ht, but competing against each other in swimming, his forte, was suicide. i'd always cheat by walking (we play in the training pool, left the adult pool for serious swims). yup, we swim in delta pool, which was y i still swim there even tho it was rumoured to b swarming w gays. (not dat i'm much of an eye-candy to b pestered by them aniwaes)
when he found a new gd fren in VS, i was jealous, even tho i hadn't really treated him as a gd fren wld. his new fren was called jackson and he (jackson) brought him in to christianity. dat was in sec 2, and was when our lives became to diverge.
he went out of my life totally while i was in JC, the way most of my old life was back then. found new frens, new lives, and of cos, new troubles. aniwaes, the both of us never met up again, until after JC--b4 bmt, when the both of us prepared for ns together, shopping in the army mkt. but dat was it. life took another turn and the only time we met was when my father passed away. he came w his mother, who knew my father well, cos they always mit in the mkt.
we exchanged some smses in the coming yrs, and the last i knew of him was dat he was in poly studying computer animation (i even 4got the name of the poly, shit me. dun dare to ask him again...), something he was always so interested and gd in. gd for him, i wish him luck.
4 Nov 2005
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Friday, November 18, 2005
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Another Year Gone
Happy Birthday to zenöv of zenövia!.
Happy Birthday to momo.
Happy Birthday to handorin.
Happy Birthday To 冷叶.
Happy Birthday to 志mo (couldn't find the word in IME).
another yr has passed. went thru a whole sem of celibacy (juz read from a bk dat celibacy also refers to the abstinence from many other stuff other than sex), and went thru a sem of fashion spotting.
went thru a period of uncertainty, and yet w hopes for the future, went thru a period of utter dissapointment, and a period of self-deception.
went thru a period of striving, and went thru a period of self-degrading.
eventful yr?
but nothing has changed.
zenöv is still zenöv. i'm still in singapore, still in a place where i so much want (note the tense) to leave.
still leading a lifestyle i so much want to change, living in an environment i so much loathe.
seeing the same disgusting faces of PRCs i so much destest, feeling the same kind of coldness around me.
hope has left me. dreams haf forsaken me. soul had departed and will has dissolved. lonelinfinity has set itself upon me, again.
perhaps life has indeed changed.
November is my time, the season of the scorpios... the Cold November. in fact, it rained at the start of the Big Day. the time where the grey and rainy weather becomes the backdrop for my life's MV called melancholy.
i dunno y, after a sem of leading a life of solitude w/o much gripe, i'm feeling the presence of lonelinfinity again. reading the blogs of students living their lives overseas, leading lives i so much desired. seeing couples everywhere in the central library. watching frens pass by in gps enjoying the bliss of company.
all of a sudden, i feel so isolated.
tears found their way to the brim of my eyes again, from half a yr of self-denial.
did an unofficial IQ test last wk and found out later that 83 is a prime.
17 11 1983
19 and 83 r primes juz like 17 and 11 r.
i'm made up of primes, whose world is only One and Myself.
and on the same day of discovery, i came up w a new slogo for myself (see below). how fitting.
in a world of one and myself, the unparallelled.
some more trivia. i buy toto w my birthdates and tao's birthdates, who also happen to b a prime person like me. of cos, i bot his number juz cos of his status as a special fren, not cos of his prime status. but aniwaes, come to tink of it, there seem to b a sort of coincidence, yar?
but other than my fate w primes, i guess my prime is over, for ahead of me, i can see no clear path.
no options open for me, no road leading to damascus.
each yr, this day... it seemed to b getting more and more depressing.
when will i see bottom (and thus rise from it, according to the Kinetic Theory)? or will i not live to c it?
fate has left me w no choice. life has left me w no choice. my family has left me w no choice.
Happy Birthday to ME.
written by zenöv on 11 Nov 2005 to zenöv at 17 Nov 2005
Happy Birthday to zenöv of zenövia!.
Happy Birthday to momo.
Happy Birthday to handorin.
Happy Birthday To 冷叶.
Happy Birthday to 志mo (couldn't find the word in IME).
another yr has passed. went thru a whole sem of celibacy (juz read from a bk dat celibacy also refers to the abstinence from many other stuff other than sex), and went thru a sem of fashion spotting.
went thru a period of uncertainty, and yet w hopes for the future, went thru a period of utter dissapointment, and a period of self-deception.
went thru a period of striving, and went thru a period of self-degrading.
eventful yr?
but nothing has changed.
zenöv is still zenöv. i'm still in singapore, still in a place where i so much want (note the tense) to leave.
still leading a lifestyle i so much want to change, living in an environment i so much loathe.
seeing the same disgusting faces of PRCs i so much destest, feeling the same kind of coldness around me.
hope has left me. dreams haf forsaken me. soul had departed and will has dissolved. lonelinfinity has set itself upon me, again.
perhaps life has indeed changed.
November is my time, the season of the scorpios... the Cold November. in fact, it rained at the start of the Big Day. the time where the grey and rainy weather becomes the backdrop for my life's MV called melancholy.
i dunno y, after a sem of leading a life of solitude w/o much gripe, i'm feeling the presence of lonelinfinity again. reading the blogs of students living their lives overseas, leading lives i so much desired. seeing couples everywhere in the central library. watching frens pass by in gps enjoying the bliss of company.
all of a sudden, i feel so isolated.
tears found their way to the brim of my eyes again, from half a yr of self-denial.
did an unofficial IQ test last wk and found out later that 83 is a prime.
17 11 1983
19 and 83 r primes juz like 17 and 11 r.
i'm made up of primes, whose world is only One and Myself.
and on the same day of discovery, i came up w a new slogo for myself (see below). how fitting.
in a world of one and myself, the unparallelled.
some more trivia. i buy toto w my birthdates and tao's birthdates, who also happen to b a prime person like me. of cos, i bot his number juz cos of his status as a special fren, not cos of his prime status. but aniwaes, come to tink of it, there seem to b a sort of coincidence, yar?
but other than my fate w primes, i guess my prime is over, for ahead of me, i can see no clear path.
no options open for me, no road leading to damascus.
each yr, this day... it seemed to b getting more and more depressing.
when will i see bottom (and thus rise from it, according to the Kinetic Theory)? or will i not live to c it?
fate has left me w no choice. life has left me w no choice. my family has left me w no choice.
Happy Birthday to ME.
written by zenöv on 11 Nov 2005 to zenöv at 17 Nov 2005
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