noe me, or else...


zenöv of zenövia!
unparallelled



~ ~

November 17th morning 1983
ζ Silat Kindergarten ζ Silat PS:1A-2A ζ ZPS:3A-6A ζ
ζ RVHS:1F/2F/3/4I ζ HJC:00S60
ζ BMTC Ninja + Viper ζ Jln BM
ζ Punggol 21 ζ NEL->EWL->96
ζ NUS Engin 2 ζ CSC ζ CSL ζ LB
ζ Ethelonter III ζ sammi
ζ zenov_yzr@yahoo.com

Wat I Did On

φ 27 Sep 2006 (Sat) φ
went sch early morning. print notes, went clubrm, gaw goft-wrapping not starting den. went to drink tea w dr at arts den went back and rot w him at the cubicle while gaw continued their meeting. 1400hrs, gift-wrapping start. was w the VM cell wrapping PWG. den, went for CSL w pui and guys. raymond still rem me and told me he wanted me to go and help him w his chi, cos his new kor kor sucked in chi.

φ 26 Sep 2006 (Tue) φ
mugged, and cut hair at kimage by a LEADING hairstylist. an old woman w horrible make-up. the outcome quite ok, i transformed from a tw boy to a hk lad...

φ 25 Sep 2006 (Mon) φ
rot in and out of clubrm. proj meeting n my proj mates finally accepted the fact dat we're doing a mkting module cos our sup said so.

φ 23 - 24 Sep 2006 (Sat) φ
cyclohunt. went from ecp to paya lebar to tampines to pasir ris to changi village to changi airport back to ecp. butt is sore~!!!

φ 22 Sep 2006 (Fri) φ
slacked in clubrm, did LB stuff, den helped gaw check the gifts. left w dr, den supper w zps gang at tb market.

φ 21 Sep 2006 (Thur) φ
mugged a little, den watched forbidden city.

φ 20 Sep 2006 (Wed) φ
went clubrm to 'study'. end up helping tC do the LB MAF stuff. yep, the great day is coming & prep is under way. den, cb came at 3.30pm to play squash. me and him, w dr outside the squash courts mugging. den zin came and mugged too. amazingly, squash today is tiringly. perhaps cb really noe how to tire ppl, incl himself. den we had steamboat at the cheena 'cafe' at src. quite ok, worth it for $6. den, back to clubrm to 'study'. end up look at photos w j1 and den help her w phy tut. den left her w ives at 10pm... yup, it was VERY late le...

φ 19 Sep 2006 (Tue) φ
had breakfast w LF at clementi hawker centre. zin came later and treated us siew mai, to make up for being late. ok, we forced her to treat us. Then we went big bookshop to LSLS. wow... v long neva shop in such a bkshop and it still fascinates me. pretty but useless stationery, cheap but small sch bags... den, went home, punggol home. ate instant mee (cos i miss eating instant mee) and slept. woke up by mum coming home, had dinner den her soup. supposedly to fight heatiness. den, watch tv and sleep.

φ 18 Sep 2006 (Mon) φ
mugged.. or so i tot. couldn't really study. attended csc agm at 1830. haiz... they feel sad, and i feel sad too. shan't say much here. 一切尽在不言中

φ 17 Sep 2006 (Sun) φ
mugged. met fred at tbp for dinner at 8pm. ate LD's biscuits...

φ 16 Sep 2006 (Sat) φ
mugged.

φ 15 Sep 2006 (Fri) φ
mugged.

φ 14 Sep 2006 (Thur) φ
GAW booth.

φ 13 Sep 2006 (Wed) φ
Lab again, couldn't find lab, squashed, mugged.

φ 12 Sep 2006 (Tue) φ
No lab! cos lab is FULL... went to tut to sign in attendance. had breakfast w 6g at arts canteen.

φ 11 Sep 2006 (Mon) φ
Lab, sianz... slack at study rm...

φ 09 Sep 2006 (Sat) φ
LB, source for T-shirt printing, bot MAF stuff, Ma'at gathering to celebrate the b'days of Sep babies at Park Mall's Fish n Co. Had seafood platter for 2 w dr. Was given a cake by another group of people we dunch noe, so we ate 2 cakes within 2 hrs!

φ 08 Sep 2006 (Fri) φ
Lab, E31 meeting, GAW Briefing, KFC with 8 other people.

φ 07 Sep 2006 (Thur) φ
Bot new RAM for my lifebk! PC333 512MB. Now my lifebk is running 3x faster than b4...

φ 06 Sep 2006 (Wed) φ
Went swimming w cb, only to realize it was pri sch's hols & we called it off, only to eat kfc at JE pool. Then, went to sim lim to buy RAM for my laptop, only to realize i dinno the type of RAM my lifebook needs. So, went home empty-handed.

φ 05 Sep 2006 (Tue) φ
Auditions. Continued to fine-tune tC's present. LB-meeting. Happy Birthday to tC & bon voyage to 丘羽!!

φ 04 Sep 2006 (Mon) φ
Spent the whole day preparing for tC's b'day, cos his bday is on tue. waited for km to arrive at 7pm and we started recording a 广播剧 for the present. Rushed home to dp post-productions...

φ 03 Sep 2006 (Sun) φ
Spent 7 hrs under the sun...

φ 02 Sep 2006 (Sat) φ
Attended CSC Elections. wow... it's very attn-stretching. went for LB's 1st regular visit since LBFD. BBS after that. Accompanied tC to ikea to do some shopping. After that, took the shuttle service from ikea to sengkang. 1st time taking it, but it was slow, cos the bus took some funny, long detour. Last min prep...

φ 01 Sep 2006 (Fri) φ
Lab, tutorials, E31 discussion, home. Print photos and sleep.

φ 31 Aug 2006 (Thur) φ
ktv lunch w zw & yh. after dat, we walked abt abit and settled down at carl's jr. zw went off at 3+ and yh & 1 stayed till 4.30pm.

φ 30 Aug 2006 (Wed) φ
Self study day. Had lunch w J2. den J1 came and 2J & me went to haf dinner. after which, J2 went for dance & J1 & me went to print notes. peaceful day. lived up my name as GC prez for prying some dark secrets of J2... haha... J1's next.

φ 29 Aug 2006 (Tue) φ
LB meeting. We began to believe we're on the rite track. We'll go build a new LB together! Stupid me actually been to wrong tut gp for 2 wks!

φ 26 Aug 2006 (Sat) φ
Dinner w family at Yong Chun Yuan.

φ 25 Aug 2006 (Fri) φ
LB Outing to Settler's at CQ. Click on LB On The Blog link for details.

φ 23 Aug 2006 (Wed) φ
Swimming w cb from 230pm to 5pm at JE Pool. Dinner at the kfc there too.

φ 22 Aug 2006 (Tue) φ
Went to sch, zao lect, did tutorial & attended a hypnotizing session a.k.a E7 tutorial. escaped to clubrm to update my blog. nabehz~ Life's boring... NOT. gonna haf lunch w y^2. And then...

φ 21 Aug 2006 (Mon) φ
Went to sch, zao lect, den met up w 2J+C (their fren) to haf lunch @ engin canteen. tokked kok to joyce and den went to clubrm to rot. Then, printed notes on CBLC. next day, received announcement from E35 lecturer dat the notes will b sold by coop. nabehz~

φ 19 Aug 2006 (Sat) φ
LBFD. See LB's blog for more details.

φ 18 Aug 2006 (Fri) φ
Prep for LBFD. Nametags, presents, dispenser... Went to mit ZPS Gang, dinner at siam kitchen, GWC. had dessert at cedele. nice...

φ 17 Aug 2006 (Thur) φ
Last day of Outreach. Prepared for LBFD.

φ 16 Aug 2006 (Wed) φ
CSC Outreach Day 2. played squash w Ma'ats again. super shag! 1st time i played till dat shagged! cb, se, 2j, km, dr & zin all came down, tho not sll played lol

φ 15 Aug 2006 (Tue) φ
2nd day of sch! CSC Outreach Day 1! fun... =)

φ 14 Aug 2006 (Mon) φ
1st day of sch! So much fun! Jio-ed 2Js to lunch, but end up accompanying them nid modules at clubrm. Then only joyce accompany me eat lunch. Ed joined us and we had a little gossip, from Arts canteen to CL to clubrm. jenny so farnie. She said her tuition got cancelled, but she neva come back sch earlier. hmmm... sth's fishy... den had a meeting w LB comm at student's lounge. den home. my landlady was very nice to gimme eat the lor mai kai she made herself. and dan hua tang! den watched tv w her daughter while chatting on msn...

φ 13 Aug 2006 (Sun) φ
Recuperate from sadness.

φ 12 Aug 2006 (Sat) φ
Fire diao, LB, LB VBS, shopping along NEL.

φ 11 Aug 2006 (Fri) φ
Lunch w cb, shopping, dinner w Ma'at. Fireworks watching. Tok-kok.

φ 10 Aug 2006 (Thur) φ
Went sch take cca card. Then slept. Then blogged.

φ 09 Aug 2006 (Wed) φ
Nat'l Day, blading at ECP, dinner at Shi Nai Cha Can Ting, watched NDP, blogged.

φ 08 Aug 2006 (Tue) φ
Big Shift 3/3, sch, dinner w tC, shopping at PS & Orchard MRT.

φ 07 Aug 2006 (Mon) φ
KTV w some Ma'ats and Big Shift 2/3.

φ 06 Aug 2006 (Sun) φ
SLEEP, SLEEP, SLEEP, shift stuff and dat's all.

φ 05 Aug 2006 (Sat) φ
tuition, lunch at Bryan's, chit chat, Hard Gay, Fireworks, steamboat, chit chat and shitting.

φ 04 Jul 2006 (Fri) φ
met up w yj again to complete our hideous stuff. had lunch and den had haircut. c'est tout.

φ 02 Aug 2006 (Wed) φ
met up w yj & we went to do some hideous stuff...

φ 01 Aug 2006 (Tue) φ
Matric fair again. After dat, slacked a while in clubrm helping them fold the leaves. Then went to Bras Basah to buy acrylic for the *LB CONFIDENTIAL*. bot PDA, Palm Tunsten E from ebay. Then met kf where we had dinner at dis V8 restaurant in Bugis. Home.

φ 31 Jul 2006 (Mon) φ
Matric fair from 1330 - 1530, gonna do for tue, wed & fri too. LB comm meeting at 1530 at student's lounge. so on, we visualized so much fancy stuff. hope we can fulfil everything we planned.

φ 30 Jul 2006 (Sun) φ
Slept at home, 2nd try at pasta. Not a bloody mess, got green, but not dat nice cos of the capsicum.

φ 29 Jul 2006 (Sat) φ
Lunch at Funan food court after Ma'ats went for city walk. rotted a while, den to LB w tC & cb. den met up w bryan & LF and them, me, joyce, cb & ed went to sing ktv. den we met km at cnt pt mac for supper.

φ 28 Jul 2006 (Fri) φ
Went for SOKA SD Orientation. GC nearly full strength w exception of viv. Did quite a bit of bitching and groping, pinching... shall elaborate more in blog, but it's late at nite now...

φ 27 Jul 2006 (Thur) φ
Got so bored staying at home 2 hrs into waking dat I jio-ed cb to Nat'l Lib to immerse ourselves in the bk-ish environment. Slept at there instead. Then went to Sim Lim to look at PDAs.

φ 26 Jul 2006 (Wed) φ
Afternoon chat w zw & sh from 1-6 at kovan xin wang. csl after dat. justin drew for me a nice pic.

φ 25 Jul 2006 (Tue) φ
Ma'at Sports Day 3. Played squash all the way. Mac dinner. Took up a challenge w cb & km to lose 3 inches off our waist by next wk.

φ 24 Jul 2006 (Mon) φ
Ma'at Water Sports Day 2. Late, started walking to JE pool at 1230pm, only to realize it's only open at 1430 on mon. Lazy river, wave, lazy and wave. No slides this time round, cos I'm a bit flu-y. Dinner at kopitiam outside pool w ching & bu, cos ray went home for dinner =(

φ 23 Jul 2006 (Sun) φ
Nothing much, except shopping at NTUC & pasta making.

φ 22 Jul 2006 (Sat) φ
LB visit, but went to visit an elderly in Pasir Ris b4 dat. uh-oh... haven't visited epl's elderly...

φ 21 Jul 2006 (Fri) φ
Dinner with YJ, den watched Thank You For Smoking, a super brainy show.

φ 20 Jul 2006 (Thur) φ
Ma'at 满月. Went to settler's and then to Crystal Jade at Suntec. Pathetic attendance. 满月 = Time to split up.

φ 19 Jul 2006 (Wed) φ
Revelation with someone

φ 18 Jul 2006 (Tue) φ
Ma'at Sports Day 2

φ 17 Jul 2006 (Mon) φ
Movie with GC. Slacked, walked from DG to The Heerens, settled at Starbucks at Crown Prince Hotel, then dinner at Cine's LJS. Walked again to Kino, chit chat standing among the sea of books. Then home... on NEL lah...

φ 15 Jul 2006 (Sat) φ
Bintan Trip.

φ 14 Jul 2006 (Fri) φ
GC Investiture.

φ 13 Jul 2006 (Thur) φ
Ma'at Water Sports Day. See blog entry.

φ 11 Jul 2006 (Tue) φ
Ma'at Sports Day. See blog entry.

φ 10 Jul 2006 (Mon) φ
Sent my mum to polyclinic dis morn. She has fracture, so she'll be going to c an ortho next next wk at AH. Spent a boring 5 hrs in SK Polyclinic. They r sure INEFFICIENT. I couldn't sleep & I scolded a little kid who kept climbing over me while I slept. Late afternoon, went to Marine Parade to bk Bintan Hols. Chose the wrong route. Spent 1.5 hrs on 197. shucks! shd haf taken from bedok. My return trip took only 1 hr.

φ 09 Jul 2006 (Sun) φ
Dinner with Ma'at after their C.A.N. Split into Pizza Hut and Pastamania.

φ 08 Jul 2006 (Sat) φ
Afternoon: LB elderly-turned-volunteers outing to Qian Hu in Tengah, followed by KPO session at Delifrance w some of the surviving volunteers. Made way down to hf's hse to play mahjong w HJC gang, tho they stopped playing to watch WC. boring~ when will these ppl grow up?? so i'm here updating my blog...

φ 07 Jul 2006 (Fri) φ
Afternoon: Chalet accts tally with zin & bryan. chit chat & abused zin's laptop while she was away. Evening: 3rd date w someone at harborfront, followed by a long walk w her to home. Then off to bugis to try my luck w bryan & chio bu & watched a super lame show: Recycle together, after shopping through 3 cinemas

Albums & Movies For Sale

Mandarin Albums (S'pore version)
DVD movies
Mandarin Albums (China imported)

Resolutions 2006

-+ Stop engaging in self pity & get on w life +-
-+ Play the piano +-
-+ Rollerblading +- learning
-+ Dancing +-
-+ Pick up LAF1201 +-
-+ Shed 2kg by CNY +-
-+ Shed 8kg more by June and MAINTAIN +-
-+ Complete 1st novel by June & 2nd novel by Dec +-
-+ Find a tuition job +-
-+ Read 8 6 english bks +-
-+ Read 2 chinese bks +-
-+ Join 新加坡大专文学奖 w my 1st novel +-
-+ Join 绝对 Superstar +-
-+ Do a gd job in csc bizcom and ethelonter III +-
-+ 1st sem CAP: 3.35 fall short of goal +-
-+ Creative PC-Cam 950 (Blue) +-
-+ 1GB RAM for Lifebook +-
-+ External DVD Writer +-
-+ Say 'Sorry' +-

high in my creative zen



人质,我要快乐,爱情带来的改变,
不屑纪念,我的爱,倔强,我们都会错,
终身美丽,如果我们不再见,
如果我是你,
回来我身边,
爱太远,你在下个路口等我,海洋,
结束我们抱着哭,爱情不能作比较,
我们,听说爱情回来过,朋友的朋友,
烂泥,记认,同年同月同日生,Amen,
亲爱的你怎么不在我身边,纪念,
我也很想他,候鸟,苦闷情调,满足,
忽然之间,双手的温柔,爱,害怕,
两个寂寞,花火,爱不持久,保佑我,
我要我们在一起,比我幸福,乡音,
吻,多爱,惦念,疼你的责任,哭,
天地一沙鸥,巴黎草梅,我还记得,

movie dat rox!

GATTACA
The Matrix Trilogy
Snow Falling On Cedars
Taking Lives, Pearl Harbor
X-men, Monsters' Inc
Dead Poet's Society
Great Expectations
Needing You (孤男寡女)
"O" 我左眼见到鬼

books dat mooves

Great Expectations
Snow Falling On Cedars
Sing To The Dawn, Enid Blyton

gaming craze

SimCity 3000 Unlimited
SimCity4, The Age of Empires 2
Neverwinter Nights
Railroad Tycoon II, Tropico,
Enter The Matrix,
Beach Life,Worms Armageddon
Capitalism II, Monopoly Tycoon
Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion

i'm a scorpio

Symbol: The Scorpion
Ruling Planet: Pluto/ Mars
Element: Water
Cross/Quality: Fixed
Group: Intellectual
House Ruled: Eight
Polarity: Negative
Opposite Sign: Taurus
Favorable Colors: Dark Reds & black
Lucky Gem: Opal
Key Body Part: Reproductive Organs
Period: Oct.23 - Nov.21

Basic Profile:
Passionate, vibrant, magnetic, perceptive, emotional, sensual, alert, willful, determined, resourceful, purposeful, directed, dominant, ambitious, fearless, committed, intense, but can be obsessive, extreme, vengeful, jealous, spiteful, unforgiving, bully, menacing, possessive, arrogant

Famous Scorpions:
Bill Gates, Theodore Roosevelt, Pablo Picasso, Martin Luther, Marie Curie, Prince Charles, Hillary Rodham Clinton, Calista Flockhart, kd lang, Leonardo DiCaprio, Jodie Foster, Demi Moore

more stuff


What kind of love are you?
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You are pure love. Pure and deep. You not only want
to but NEED to find your one true love. You are
not afraid of any challenge for your love, and
it is something to truly treasure.

quote-a-pro

"I've never saved anything for the trip back."
"I've never been so far from my dream than when I was standing right beside it."
"If at first you don't succeed, try, try again"
"Ten fingers, ten toes, that was all that mattered. They don't say that now."
"Is the only way you can succeed is to see me fail?"
"Maybe it was the love for the planets, maybe it was my growing detest for this one, but for as long as I remember, I have dreamt of going into space
"You try so hard to leave a place and when you do, you find a reason to stay."
"They've got you looking for the flaws that after a while, it's all that you see."
"The wind caught it."
"The only way you can see the inside of a spaceship is when you are cleaning it."
-- Quotes from GATTACA

"Love is like an apple; it has been more than 300 years since an apple dropped and hit someone randomly"
-- zenöv

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Outing On 3rd Day of CNY



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Sunday, January 29, 2006


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Saturday, January 28, 2006


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Thursday, January 26, 2006

重游《天国的嫁衣》

依稀记得去年看过的偶像剧:

坦率、开朗的程海诺爱上单纯、白目的陶艾箐,并向后者表白心意。可是后者断然拒绝,而程海诺不懈地进行追求。当时的艾箐才刚认识陆子皓,但久而久之便与子皓爱得难分难解。

我常常幻想自己为陆子皓这一类的人物, 因为他又有钱,又高大帅气,总是有一票女生为之疯狂。他不用努力寻找,爱情就会出现在面前,甚至会有很多女生主动追求。

但是事与愿违。

我是贫穷寒酸的程海诺。唯一的本钱就是讨人开心的伎俩。满街的陶艾箐都看不到我,因为我不符合她们的要求。

我不要做程海诺,因为他是一个悲剧人物。。。

但是事与愿违。

没有长相、没有高度、没有钱财。这就是我。

下午在电视上又观看了《安娜玛德莲娜》。其中的一句引述为:

每个人都拥有属于自己的莫敏儿。很多人都能找到他们的莫敏儿,有些人穷一生都找不到她。

其实矗立在人生这一阶段的当儿,我已经洞悉自己很可能就是寻不着属于自己的莫敏儿的人。也许我会和另一个她白头到老,或许我注定是个天刹孤星,终生独守一个人的双人床。

我好孤单。

若我真的无法找到真命天女,但求不会再有一些煞是她的女生从我面前经过。这种近在眼前却得不到的幸福的滋味我已受够。上帝啊!就不要再以这种手段折磨我这么一个迷途凡人了!我只但求能够得到付出的劳力所应得的回报;我已不敢怀抱那种奢求大富大贵,拥有真爱相随的念头了。

我不要幸福,只要求得到公平的对待。

天国的嫁衣,我也拥有一件,就待愿意试穿它的人。

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Monday, January 23, 2006


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Saturday, January 21, 2006

CSC Day Pix

d/l some of the pix posted online. showing some to share for those who were not present. wun b saying much tho, juz plain enjoyment of pix and caption...


CSC Day OC name tags. i used to haf 2 hearts (as in the pic), but during the event, someone stole one from it...



and the ppl behind it... yup... we took so many pix w the banner after it was completed, and dis was the only one when everyone of the comm was present; at the last meeting.



the meeting b4 D-day... sorry if i looked slack...



the banner proclaiming gay pride, w the proclaimer showing the 'V' sign... there's the openly gay purple elephant and the closet, straight-acting pink-nailed blue elephant who were our mascots. those little tortoises r doing exercises, and yes, they could b the elephants' descendants...



guozhang w his face covered, but not someone...



for the sake of jan... i d/l the pic of a fatherly figure...



for another sake of jan... i wasted my MBs for an elderly-respecting character...



... and w him showing care for peers... hello? wat's bro-in-law doing beside someone?!?!



halfway thru the day, the banner dropped, tore and now it's seh-ngeh...



me caught eating snake at the reg booth... my rite is fellow HC-ian florence, den my councillor ic meitoon (or as mervyn pronounces, 美臀, 'Beautiful Buttocks'), den lixian, and some ppl i dunno. waha!!!



lazing ard again as i waited for the finale when they were supposed to 'look' for me...

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Thursday, January 19, 2006


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Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Haf U Inverted?


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Current Wallpaper

show off time. wallpaper made from pix from NZ trip. welcome all to d/l... lol


South Island, New Zealand, on the way back from Milford Sound



South Island, New Zealand

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Monday, January 16, 2006


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Sunday, January 15, 2006


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Thursday, January 12, 2006


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Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Healing Scents

hehe... wrote dis some time during exams last sem and haven't put posted it. mite as well. lol

bot an aroma therapy set last fri from co-op. there were a number of 'XXX sets' on display, and i wanted to buy the yoga, stencils and tea sets, but decided on aroma therapy, cos i suppose the 'therapy' would b helpful in combating exams stress.



aroma therapy set (box)

it costs $36.50, btw. for an oil burner, an incense cone stand, 4 incense cones, 2 scented candles and 2 bottles of essential oils. and of cos, as the cover of the box stated v clearly, a 128-pg bk.

actually, i took the pix after i tried one of the incense cones, so the contents taken were not complete.



aroma therapy set

and as mentioned, i used one of the incense cones to try, cos frankly speaking, it was the 1st time i'd heard of incense cones. aniwaes, i chose one dat was presumably lavendar, gd for relaxtion and sleeping.

put the incense stand into the oil burner too, cos i tot the stand by itself looked rather bored. and the incense has to b shielded from ext elements like the wind.




oil burner

instead, the cone burned out rather quickly, sub-10 min, i'd say. the smoke it gave was... thick, and the smell (of chao tar lavendar) lingered for quite some time. i dunno if it was cos of wind or the incense was supposed to burn dat fast, cos tealight candles last for at least 4 hrs.



remains of an incense cone

and besides, i tink the cone was produced by mixing essential oils directly into the incense mixture bah, cos the remains were rather sticky, esp the stand, which was coated w a layer of caramel-like substance...



even pathetic remains of an incense cone

cleared up, took pix of the set, and went for an afternoon nap. hmmm... and i muz say the nap felt v fulfilling. actually dreamt of nice stuff, of me visiting an old dream place (ie. some unknown place i've dreamt of b4). and i explored the places i've neva explored in my prev dreams, a part of the woods. yup, and dreamt of gerald also. dunno y i've been dreaming of him lately (haf an entry on him...).

woke up feeling satisfied, tho i woke up cos the weather became too hot and uncomfortable for sleeping... guess i've really been sleeping badly for the whole sem when i felt as if i dun get enuf sleep everyday even tho i sleep for 9 hrs bah...

19 Nov 2005

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Sunday, January 08, 2006


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Friday, January 06, 2006

Self Pix (Spring Edition)

went to chap 2 as recommended by wei-gu. yep, cos the JB trip was postponed till sch reopens, and i dun wanna start sch looking bad, so i went to settle my hair on tue.

actually, i wanted to go shunji matsuo at tampines at 1st. but it was closed for the day and i had no choice but proceed to chap 2 at marina sq which i tot will b less crowded than it's bugis branch.

aniwaes, marina sq is still under reno, so it was rather empty. still, i had a hard time looking for the salon, cos the place was super big. hmmm... y din i realize it b4? spent 1/2 hr coursing thru the mall to look for it, so much so i was rather pissed off by the time i found it.




dat's it! ok... when i post dis pic on msn, i tot i looked like a dwarf w abnormally short hand... u noe, comical.

aniwaes, the place was really empty, save for the single customer, and i was greeted w frenly faces. the hairdresser was nice in suggesting the kind of haircut and asking for my opinion. frankly speaking, i wasn't sure wat i wanted. but i sure wanted a shorter haircut for better management. my mind was lingering at takeshi's recent haircut during his promotion for Perhaps Love. it was a plain haircut, but it looked super nice on him, cos, well, he was super suave.



meet takeshi, my twin



meet takeshi a la impersona. gosh! look at those mesmerizing eyes!!!

aniwaes, we still settled for a normal haircut. by normal, i mean a trendy haircut adopted by most guys. dat is: top is short enuf for spikes, layered sides and back. (frankly speaking, after the whole thing, i dun c any diff other than the fact dat my hair was shorter lol). she snipped and snipped while i glanced thru the FHM. sianz. FHM is a crappy mag. if i wanna see boobies, i can go online and i can see BARE boobies. and the texts were crappy. i guess guys whose main vocabs r BOOBS and CUNTS really devoted the whole of their fish-sized brains to those stuff, like the sick jacky tan who dropped me 100 (i wonder if he has contracted HIV yet for his promiscous lifestyle. or rather, his prostitute-every-bk-out lifestyle).

ok... enuf of cursing a sick person. i juz hope he dies from multiple STDs lol




DIE tonite!

and then, the colourist took over. she was helpful also, suggesting to me a wat kind of colours and design i shd go. juz in case the pix were not gd enuf, my sides r pale brown, while the rest of my head is cherry red, the colour i donned for my 1st yr in nus. and then i became v sleepy.



sianz...

slept late the nite b4 and woke up early for the hairstyling session. hmmm... add on the lousy editorials of FHM, i was fighting hard to keep awake...



go away, sleeping bug!!!

so... spent abt 45 min on the colouring. then went back and had final touches to the haircut. and the gal styled my hair to a v jap one. i muz haf looked the most jappy in the whole of my life then, cos i believed i can neva replicate the hairstyle by myself. aniwaes, she made me hair look so tall, i felt so awkward. it was loud and i looked v attn-grabbing.

thankfully, by the time i reached home, the mound had sorta settled (my hair is naturally heavy...) and i looked more normal. lol



aha! i look better looking! i feel great! i feel confident! duh!

and as usual, i went to steal borrow my sis camera and snapped to my heart's content. after all, dat was gonna b my most best looking time in recent days. tried many diff poses and backgrounds. okok... cos i had the air-con switched on, i still stayed in my rm, the fav spot by the window where the natural light from the sun was enuf to create a gd effect, ie. hides most defects on the face.



listen to me!!

sorry i din change my t-shirt, cos i was afraid i would spoil hair dat was specially set-to. haha... but i really tried to take pix in diff places of the rm... taking from diff angles...



hmmm... wat happened?? dat was my CEILING in the background. see? i used diff pts of my rm...

diff poses and showing different signs...



understand?!

and trying my best to act cool and seh...



hmmm... again

all in all, i took 147 pix in half an hr. din break my prev record of 90 in 10 min, but it was still a big collection. lol

of cos, finally, to sign off...



ciao!

I never saved anything for the trip back, do you? at 1:45 PM

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

New Year Resolution

of cos, it's dat time of the yr; the time to set goals to attain for the next yr. i've neva really set new year resolutions b4, which means dis will b my 1st time. i will set them by my side bar and strike them off one by one as i achieve each goal. yay!!!

from wat i see from others, i suppose the resolutions hafta b segmented. after all, it could b a rather long list. considering those will b stuff to do for the next 365 days, it wun b too much bah.

typical for my personality, i always do elimination. ie, i state stuff i shd avoid 1st. avoidance is an easy task, cos it usually requires inaction. here's wat:

-_- Stop engaging in self pity & move on with life

-_- strive towards ZERO alcohol and nicotine


as a person w no achievement to my name, i hafta upgrade myself constantly. pick up special skills to enhance my life, keep up w others and train myself to haf a more all-rounded personality. here's the list of wat i plan to pick up in the new yr.

-_- Play the piano (electronic keyboard)

-_- Rollerblading

-_- A form of dancing (gave up last sem, haiz...)

-_- Pick up french again --> take LAF 1201, or LAF 1202 if i pass the placement test


and then, there r some stuff i haf been longing to accomplish, but always end up not doing. i hope to attain it this yr:

-_- shed 2kg by CNY

-_- shed 8kg more by mid-yr and MAINTAIN

-_- Finish my 1st novel by June and 2nd by end of the year

-_- Find a tuition job for extra bucks

-_- Read 8 english books and 2 chinese books unrelated to school work (reference: twice more english bks than i read in 2005 and infinity times w.r.t chinese bks. haha...)

gaining achievement to my name:

-_- with my 1st novel, join 新加坡大专文学奖

-_- 绝对 Superstar!!! (muz at least join and find out whether i make the cut)

-_- do a gd job in: csc bizcom, ethelonter

-_- 1st sem CAP: 3.35 (w a starting CAP same as last year, dis goal is slightly higher than what i achieved after the 1st sem of the year)

-_- 2nd sem CAP: 3.35. wahaha!!! i'd b on SEP, all S/U!!! but if i take special sem, i hope to improve to 3.5

and as usual, i'm a 败家子, finding ways to spend $$ is my forte. but these r stuff dat costs higher than usual, and i hope to obtain them w my tuition job (PLEASE!!! let me obtain substantial income from tuition!!!)

-_- creative pc-cam 950 (blue)

-_- upgrade the RAM of my lifebook to 1GB.

-_- external dvd-writer


and lastly, the most behemoth task:

-_- find a chance to say "Sorry" to yuehan

I never saved anything for the trip back, do you? at 1:02 PM

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Nightmare At Bkt Tinggi

Date: 16 Dec 2005 - 18 Dec 2005
Venue: Singapore - Bt Tinggi, M'sia - Singapore

holiday trips r supposed to b fun. but w me running into a bout of bad luck, holiday trips become irritatingly disastrous. yes, it's not filled-w-A&E-incidents disastrous, but unhappily and rottenly disastrous. haiz...

aniwaes, started the trip on fri morn. my sis was so confident dat we could hail a cab off the main rd, dat we dun nid 2 call a cab. but in punggol? 6 in the morning? i dunno wat common sense means to gals. really.

aniwaes, off to golden mile complex (where else) and took off only at 7am, cos there were irritating ppl who dun like to wait for latecomers and scooted off to loiter ard. so, when the latecomers came, we find 2 missing. when the 2 returned, another 3 went off to buy magazines. haiz... i dunno wat common sense means to s'poreans.


and den spent 1 hr at s'pore customs. haiz... all the terrorism thingy has made s'pore customs VERY inefficient. really. we breezed thru the malaysian customs lor.

it was a long and tiring trip to bt tinggi. ever since the long flights to and fro NZ, i've quite a phobia of staying in a particular, constricted space for long periods of time. it was no fun and sleeping was an uncomfortable exp.

aniwaes, we reached the foot of genting to change to a 'taxi' to bt tinggi, cos the bus we took was actually heading off to genting, and bt tinggi was juz beside genting, on another hilltop, dat is. the taxi turned out to b a run-down minivan where we had to squeeze in w a family of indians and 2 PRCs. but well, it beats walking up to bt tinggi, yar?

aniwaes, it was den i realized we hadn't taken any photos yet. and since there was nothing nice to b taken, i juz did wat was natural:















on the van to bt tinggi

wat to do? when there is nothing more beautiful to spend the megabytes on?

okok... intro to bt tinggi. actually, there is only 1 resort in it, a french-themed resort called colmar tropicale, literally meaning a tropical ver of a french place called colmar. which explains how the place looked so french, esp w the cool weather up in the mountains. everything was donned w a french name, even the fried chicken fast food restaurant dat looked like some malay kopitiam.

aniwaes, we reached the place at abt 4pm, w the sun shining like... like... pardon my lack of vocab. yup, den my 3rd sis was like exclaiming: so sunny!!! not like genting!!

we shd understand dat we r responsible for every word we say... esp when it started to pour 2 hrs later...




entrance of colmar tropicale

the place, being the only resort there, was like a hotel split into a few blks alongside a single st (which was basically the whole world oredi...). aniwaes, we moved into the 6th blk, labelled w a beautifully vulgar name of a flower, Fuchsia.



the building name of where i lived: fuck-sia...



room

the next disaster came when we stepped into our rms. despite being spacious, it was really lok-kok, liddat of a chalet. the floor was disfigured by marks from moving furniture (and most prob luggage) and the windows were faulty. haiz... the rm had the stench of smoke, which was prob left over by some generations of guests b4. bunches of hair + dirt (i guess it's called dirtball...) could b seen swirling under the effect of the ceiling fan.

the last straw came when i saw the note on the table: due to some unforeseen circumstances, the water is murky. pls do not drink from it.

guess wat? we lived on mineral water for the next 3 days. the water was REALLY MURKY. haiz... worse than the hotel at fox glacier.




view out of window

below r some of the pix of Fuck-sia blk. i guess the arrangement of the other blk were abt the same, but their exterior definitely looked different for every blk.



courtyard up



courtyard down

we then took a walk ard. the walk took abt 1 hr. yesh... cos, well, the whole resort consists of only ONE st. it was like strolling thru the arcade of hotels. but i muz admit the replicas looked v nice and coupled w the increasingly cloudy, thus cooling weather, i really felt like i was in a real version of colmar.



chateau (replica also, ah budden) opp colmar tropicale

one thing i was amazed w was how they hid all the modern amenities in the resort. there was actually a whole lot of multi-storey carpark beneath the resort. i din c the rubbish dump aniwhere. nor was there a visible loading/unloading bay (perhaps it was in the bowels of the carpark bah...).



king zenov the kong terrorising Mini-Train Town. dunno y there was such an exhibit in the midst of the resort.

we climbed up a tower at one end of the st (which was basically the end end, cos the tower at the starting end, the reception, was the office blk) and took a look at the view. ha... cos we were still fresh from the trip, took a lot of photos juz at the tower.



atop a viewing tower, of cos, it's me me ME.

and then strolled outside the resort.



i'm practising for the latest expression circulating online: puppy-look, complete w big, cutesy puppy eyes... ermz... nid more practice of cos. now, i look like a bull-dog...



impressive... speechless... ME... taken near the entrance.



st of colmar tropicale. really like fairytale...

after 1 hr, we settled at a classy-looking-but-actually-not-so-ex restaurant for dinner, during which it poured and washed the spider out. and yesh, it rained straight for the next 36 hrs we were at the resort.



nite view of viewing tower

perhaps it was due to altitude sickness, my mum and sisses prepared for bed at 8pm. so i went out alone to roam the st and see wat it was like at nite, w the x'mas decor and such. it was ok. the st was rather busy, w kids in the arcade and ppl chilling out in the restaurants. lounges and bakery. hmmm...



roof of building

had a cup of hot milo (cos it was getting chilly) and a choco cake at the bakery. yup, cos i realized dat i hadn't had a single slice of cake for my b'day, so decided to treat myself to one and say Happy Birthday to myself. too bad there were no candles. but even if there were, i wun b dat siao on to do dat in the middle of the st. ha... come to tink of it, quite nice to b celebrating my own b'day at a romantic-looking place liddat.



st view

next morn, went to the japanese garden on another hilltop. it was pouring, and for the 1st time in my recent life history, i shoved and chiong like a typical s'porean to squeeze onto the shuttle. haiz... too many ppl liaoz. and dun wanna us to get split up. i felt so miserable and low class. wondered y i lowered myself to dat level. but too bad, i did it, and it is a mark in my life. haiz...



japanese village

the village itself was built into a hillside. ie, there was a lot of climbing moving from one place to another. and basically, cos most of the facilities r for ppl staying there, we could only see, but not enjoy (like the spa...).



teahse



outside of restaurant. yup, was a bit turned off by the perpetual rain.



outside of the botanical garden... it is now dat i realize how small the umbrella really was...

the botanic garden was scary also. it was hill-climbing. went in and down... and had to climb 10-storey of height to get out. but it wasn't as if one shot climb all lah. but there was a part we had to climb abt 5 storeys straight. wow... i go holiday trip to work out...


in the restaurant, waiting for the rain to stop... or become lighter



viewing pavillion in botanic garden. so shag, i din realize my necklace was out of place...



still in botanic garden



caterpillar... 1st time i saw one dat big... and hairy



tired out...



me and storm lily. yep... white as lily, out of a storm. whoa!! dat's ME!!!



acting cute. guess wat, i imitated the expression from jay chou in Zhi Yong Dian Li Xue Xiao



misty facade

returned to colmar tropicale at abt 2. as usual, squeezed onto the shuttle. cos the shuttle was like a giant golf cart, and we were going downhill (jap village was 1000 feet higher), the trip was really scary, esp when negotiating the bends.



from italian restaurant, La Flamme

aniwaes, had lunch at a pasta restaurant, and then hopped on to the french bakery for afternoon tea. yesh... there was no place else to go, and nothing to spend our money on... so we went restaurant-hopping. haiz... hopelessly bored out...



afternoon tea at french boulangerie

after dat, bot some bangles w our names (like we can't do it in s'pore liddat) and we went up to our rm to wait for dinner time, at the same restaurant we had dinner the prev day. and then, strolled along the st in the evening bathed in the orange glow of the x'mas decor. ok... romantic, if i were there w a special someone. definitely not romantic to b w families. duh!



st of colmar tropicale



misty morning

next morning, the whole place was immersed in a misty ambience. some cloud muz haf passed by, cos the phenomena went off after we had our breakfast. we then strolled around the perimeters of the resort, ie, not the st. looked at the resort from diff angles, which we din c in the prev days.



beside the pool

and then it was checking out. haiz... then the sun came out, shining as brightly as the hr when we checked in. nevermind, it's minor compared to the disaster coming.


tower from the back

it seemed as tho we boarded the wrong bus. well, the travel agency actually sent out 2 vehicles to pick up 2 diff gps. but we, seeing it was our agency, juz boarded the bus. so, there was quite a delay as the driver tried to sort out w the parent company.



view of my rm from outside

and then the driver threw us at a shop in kl to wait for another bus to take us back to s'pore. we spent 2 bloody hrs waiting for the bus. as the shop was somewat a resting pt, all buses came to dump their passengers for shopping. ie, we breathed in the exhausts of more than two dozen buses. and well, there were 3 families waiting. when our assigned bus came, it could only take in one of the families. so the other 2 had to wait 1st.

we went on the 1st, but it dragged and dragged until we were the last family to leave the place. shucks! we were dropped off at a pathetic place for dinner. it was plain dirty and chaotic. haiz... the holidaying s'poreans... dunno how to behave.

aniwaes, the bus we sat in was a double decker, and we sat at the lower deck w only 7 seats. so the 3 seats in front of us sat 3 XXL ppl. a couple and their (adult) son. they juz ate and ate for the 7 hrs we were on the bus. and when they slept, they created such a din. a cacophony of snores. arggghhh... i actually resolved to slim down, cos i dun wanna b like them.

and then, we were stuck at the s'pore customs (again) for 2 hrs. so boring. we even finished the french premiered Narnia movie. aw man... and started the 1st hr of King Kong. too bad i din get to see KK make his appearance. but well, i'm not interested in shows w ah-meng as the lead.

and then, of cos, it's home... finally... a miserable holiday trip...



from the back

link to the whole lot of photos

in addition, an old series of photos taken on the trip to Adelaide, Australia after 'O'-Levels

I never saved anything for the trip back, do you? at 2:01 PM

Review of 2005 (edited)

it din occur to me dat i shd make a review of the past yr until i saw some of the blogs i frequent making similar entries. instead, i only drafted my resolutions, which, unfortunately, still nids fine-tuning.

while i'm always one to look forward and leave immersing myself in memories for the lonely nites, i tot i shd do sth liddat for record. yar?

aniwaes, i started the yr still as lonely as my 1st sem in nus. in fact, as the sem progresses, i drifted deeper and deeper into lonelinfinity. i was v focused on improving my CAP, cos i wanted to transfer to UB as a gd student, as a gd rep of s'pore. i gave up normal life in hope of a bigger dream out there.

of cos, nothing gd ever comes in my way. NEVA. ever since then, i haf been adopting a LIFE POLICY of: NEVA EXPECT. no expectations, and i'll definitely b better off. w an expectation of ZERO, any +ve outcome, no matter how low, is infinitely gd. any -ve outcome can b easily brushed off. examples? results. bad turn-out for outings. getting marginalized in socializing situations. no harm. i came to the world w nothing, so it doesn't matter dat i get nothing.

i had a hols rather different from others. i took special sem (same reason as above, take more modules to save costs in UB) and spent the whole of my 3 mth hols studying and mugging. studying in the hols was like studying in a pte uni, which was pte for ME. there were no rushing crowds, no muggers, no fancy-dressing ppl. onli PRCs, PRCs and ONLY PRCs. well, my aim at dat pt of time was studies, so i couldn't b bothered...

in giving up FOC, i went on a superb holiday tour to NZ South Island. dat was my 1st trip overseas by plane since my YEP to ban muangna in J2. 10 hrs of gruelling flight was worth it, for the mountains and lakes juz took my heart away. once a true-blue urbanite, my heart now longs for the GREEN JUNGLE (actually not, i hate jungles, and the colour green. GREEN JUNGLE means Mother Nature metaphorically). once i tot a laid back retirement in the little city-town of Adelaide was ideal, now i want to b coursing thru the mountain rds (no nid to b NZ, Alaska or Norway do as well) every day of my life. of cos, pragmatically, dat has to b my subst for retirement (perhaps moving to Adelaide when i'm too old to b walking ard). working life still has to b in the Big Apple, nowhere else.

the end of the 3-mth hols also mark the end of the grandest of dreams alive, as mentioned above. the dark ages of zenovia! ended, and tho Utopia did not come as promised, a new form of ruling presided the earth of zenovia!. new outlook, new life pursuits, new attitude towards life. yep. fashion, trend, accessories, glam, sleek. these r the main terms in my life. filled my teeth cavities, started to use toners and hair-dryers. look jap? ABC? juz as long as i dun look PRC, it's gd.

at the same time, i had to tackle w the mess left by the dark ages. modules out of order (i had to bid for modules in the last min and had to bid w/o much consideration), cancelling of my places in UB and its hostel. having to live w NOT living in PGP (and having to lie to ppl w.r.t WHY i no longer stay in PGP). suffering from the effects of lonelinfinity: due to the fact dat i expect to go UB, i din join CCA, so as to focus on studies and cos i tot it wldn't b practical to join one for a yr. i ended up as a lonely freak in NUS and had to live w it when i couldn't go to UB. i had to explain to the UG office. i had to suffer in ECE, cos at the pt of streaming, i believed i'd b going to UB, so it doesn't matter if i was streamed to a sucky major (& dis leads to the lying to ppl WHY i dun like ECE). well, i had to live w it now and suffer from officially flunking my 1st subject of my life.

xueli once said dat i was being childish and unreasonable to get angry for not being able to go to UB. i still disagree, considering the -ve effects of the last-minute decision still plague my life. the consequences were dire and far-reaching. and seeing a whole yr of prep and efforts vaporize in a sec was no child's play.

aniwaes, joined CSC in order to escape from the pain of the setback. had to re-orientate myself, and find a way out of lonelinfinity. joined 2 RVPs, LB and CSL, to keep myself busy. joined more OC in order to numb myself, immerse myself in the company of strangers who has the possibility to play a more major role in my life. keep myself away from home when i can't hide in PGP, cos i am angry w my family. but i'm not supposed to b angry w them, so in response, i avoid them, and hope dat as time goes by, as my wounds heal, i'll b able to face them again. i suppose dis is also sth like they've lost a family member due to a rash and selfish decision.

life w cca was not as rosy as was painted to me; i muz say csc ppl aren't as receptive to newcomers as i'd expected. in fact, they act like any other engin clsmates i haf. yup, i've met ppl who fares better in dat arena. perhaps the time is not ripe. perhaps i'm juz too afraid of interacting w ppl. after all, i was hurt so many times by a form of species known as homo sapiens. but rite now, i'm stickin to it. partly due to inertia and i was hoping dat THE TIME IS NOT RIPE.

went on my 1st leisure trip overseas w frens... to JB. shopping. dat's all. planned for better trips, but haven't fulfilled them currently. setting up 'collaborations' w another gp of frens and hoping dat we will become regular short-getaway partners.

had the most plain, yet as unique b'day. unlike prev b'days when special situations occur, like stuck in NCC camps, on YEP, on duty, in SAF ward, w special frens... i spent my b'day dis yr alone, mugging in CL. great, but at the same time lonely. yep, dis was the unique pt. it has been a long time since no one asked after me personally on my b'day. it felt familiar and odd at the same time. and noe wat, i look fwd to b'day next yr, cos it's gonna b a unique one in Finland. finally a wintry b'day i've longed for ALL MY LIFE.

and then came to terms w a lot of stuff. back in army, i din haf much time to tink of old memories. everyday of my life, i had to look out for ppl stabbing in my back. now dat i haf more time at hand other than studying, i've been looking back to the past quite often enuf. review, remorse, regrets. yup... for a most memorable fren, i juz realized dat i had been blogging abt him every once in a while. in my last meet out w 2 close frens, i finally knew abt an incident, a flow of events, dat was hidden from me (actually to a lot of other ppl) in the days dat led to our fall out.

i muz say i felt super remorseful for wat i said.

to b frank, i haf all along knew where his blog was, cos he left comments in the blog of another jc fren. but i haven't been able to bring up enuf courage to visit it. after all, he din ask me to view it, rite? but aniwaes, after dat meet-up, i went to it liaoz. actually i dunno abt the rationale behind my axn, perhaps curious, perhaps i still care. but aniwaes, he hasn't been updating. lol and stupid stuff: cos i oso left comments in dat blog of our common fren, i actually de-activated all links from my old xanga blog to dis place. ha... i oso dunno y i did dat. was afraid dat my incessant comments on him mite b seen by him. =P

busy holiday meeting the dds of csc activities, even tho i tink i din do much. wateva. it's for the experience. it's the sowing of the seeds for the time of RIPENING. yep. i'm still sinking deeper into lonelinfinity, the thirsty blackhole dat pulls me deeper in everyday. i hope for the day when i see salvation.

creatiing waves from my creative zen: Love Theme of The Piano OST by Michael Nyman --- Michael Nyman rox!!!

p/s: din realize i put in so many -ve tots in dis entry. heh... cos i wrote it at nite, a time when i'm more grumpy, and sentimental. lol

I never saved anything for the trip back, do you? at 12:30 AM

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